Tuesday, April 3, 2012

The Thrill of What You Already Have - April picture

It was quite hard, turning over the rippling waters of the River Tweed, but I was rewarded with this!I do rather wonder if Aberdeen really looks so calm and sunny in April? But I love the purpley-blue colours and the two relaxed yet stylish day-trippers. My going away-outfit was a bit like their daywear! I'm looking forward to what everyone does with this theme. Thank you for all your contributions - the more varied the better!

Monday, April 2, 2012

A is for Archaeology

Hello! Something Ang said in response to my post yesterday has really grabbed my attention, and I'm going to do a little acrostic series this week - I'll leave you to work out the key word, but suffice to say, A is for Archaeology! It's kind of a little story of my life, but the challenge is to make it all fit to the meaning of Ang's word... here we go!So, archaeology was my real passion through childhood and my teens (OK, there was a guy too, for much of that period, but we won't talk about him today... much). I was, and still am, captivated by the everyday lives of people in the past. Things that bore other people, presumably because they are merely the pages of a book or the stones of a wall or the broken remnants of a pot, jump into life for me. Interestingly, our Son 1 is the same, and the photocopied words of his history lessons become real people to him.
I spent long periods of my childhood and early teens alone, excavating a midden of broken pots in my grandparents' garden, accessioning artefacts in the spare room which became my museum and researching the history of our new home at the local library in Pinhoe, near Exeter in Devon.
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Looking back on it, it's wonderful to have such an interest and such an occupation, but there are some curiosities, too! How much of my solitary enthusiasm stemmed from an unwillingness to relate to real people outside of my own family? Was my passion for the people of the past a safe way of relating to people who couldn't relate back? I rather think so...
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I was isolated by my experiences of having moved a lot (father in the Royal Navy, new homes and new schools in new countries where I always had the wrong accent, whichever accent that was). And I deliberately isolated myself further through the common childhood perception that my family's way was right and everyone else's way was therefore, logically and inescapably, wrong. In a gentle and understandable way, A was clearly for Arrogance, too.
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I went to Reading University to study Archaeology in 1987, leaving behind my boyfriend of three years (there - I mentioned him!). University was all that it should be - an absolutely delightful upheaval from all I'd ever know, with some education thrown in for good measure. I can't say that my arrogance was shaken much, but some serious life-lessons were still learned, and I did realise, with a shock, that my family church-going had had virtually no impact on my personal faith. I believed things, but just as I had prefered to learn about people in the past who could have no effect on my life now, I found that I believed in a God who had a stately disinterest in my daily life. When some hard times came around, and I saw some Christian friends turning to Jesus as their daily support and eternal saviour, I was quite confused. Their relationship with Jesus was quite unlike anything I knew about, and quite an uncomfortable thing to see. I wondered if they were deluded, or if it just worked that way for some people and not for others.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

A Pause In Lent - Reflection on the Cardinal Virtues

Hi, and welcome to the final Pause in Lent 2012 - it's Palm Sunday! I really appreciated my blogging break and I also appreciate your kind words and your understanding of the fact that I haven't been around to read your (surely excellent) Pause in Lent posts until now.I was thinking about which of the Cardinal Virtues that I haven't covered should be the subject of my last post, and I just couldn't choose! Instead I decided to just think about the idea of the virtues as a whole. This won't take long...
What I've been thinking is that, until last year, I thought that these lists of 'nice things' were rather sacharine and cute. They seemed to be about pretending that nasty things don't happen, and didn't appear a realistic way to look at life - similar to the way that I thought about Paul's exhortation to think about 'whatever is good' (I did a post about that last Lent). An alternative way to look at them was that they are all rather dull and hard work - how could a real life full of these virtues be anything other than worthy and unpleasant?As I discovered last Lent, however, choosing to think about the good things, and choosing to live with sacrificial virtues rather than 'a bit of fun', turns out to be neither twee nor bleak. It turns out to be the best way to actually go on living and loving and thriving and growing. Drat. Teenaged cynicism is given its final death-blow. Life is fun and God is good! How hard can that be, really?

Sunday, March 25, 2012

A Pause in Lent - Humility (following the events in Toulouse)

There is so much to be said on the subject of humility, but today it's on my mind because of the events that we people of Toulouse and district have suffered over the last few weeks. Seemingly random shootings culminated in terrible deaths at a school gate, and a frightening siege which ended with the gunman's death. Family, bloggers and other friends have sent me emails, left comments and made calls - I told our pastor, who lives near the gunman's flat, that people around the world have been praying for us all - thank you so much. And please keep praying, because it isn't all over, despite the death of the killer.
Humility came to mind because of the varied reactions people have expressed about the whole situation. Politicians knew they had to be humble when faced with the death of innocents. The presidential candidates seemed dignified and human, as they put aside their squabbles and recognised that the grief of families and communities had to come first.
Once the worst was over, the politicians slipped back a little - I'm afraid it's only to be expected. But Facebook was also a bit scary, with lots of ordinary Toulousains getting pretty hot under the collar about how things should have been handled better.
The religious communities seemed to be more able to speak peace at this point. I copied the most simple, heartfelt prayer from a local French friend on my Thursday post, below. I've been looking now for some of the beautiful, noble words that were said at the time of the killings at the Jewish school - Jews and Muslims both spoke so simply and with such humanity. But here's the strange thing: the news articles where I read those words have mainly been deleted. Plenty of articles in English and French about the events and their repercussions, but the gentle thoughts of leaders and ordinary people aren't on the web any more. Humble thoughts and good news don't last as long as grouching and political analysis, perhaps.
One thing I do know is that people who spend more time forgiving the little things are better practiced at forgiving the big things. This is what the poor vicar whose family was torn apart in the vicarage attack back in the 80s said - I'll never forget it. He said something like: "Forgiveness had become a daily habit, so that when I needed to forgive this huge wrong, it still came naturally". His daughter, who was raped in the attack, has also said: "It's not whether you can or can't forgive, it's whether you will or won't". She went on: "Of course, sometimes I thought it might be quite nice to be full of hatred and revenge. But I think it creates a barrier and you're the one who gets damaged in the end. So, although it makes you vulnerable, forgiving is actually a release. I don't think I'd be here today without my Christian faith. That's what got me through."
I recognise a desire for humility and forgiveness in people responding to the Toulouse killings - of course they don't have to be Christian to value those virtues. But I also recognise in myself something that Nancy said in response to my last post: "It is so difficult to be strong; and to be stronger than darkness is only possible with The Light."

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Another little break...

Hi friends, I've scheduled a post for the Pause in Lent, but otherwise, I guess we're all feeling slightly bruised here around Toulouse, and I've also spent far too much time glued to screens trying to follow what was happening. All in all, this calls for another blogging break! I won't be visiting my blog or yours for a week - see you next Saturday!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

God Bless Toulouse

The killings and the siege are over. I can't put it better than a French friend did on Facebook:
"I pray for the families that have suffered great loss and for the family of this young guy too. May people help each other to forgive and be stronger than hatred and judgement."

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Springtime... most of the time!

Today it's dull, windy and rainy, but we've had some lovely weather too, recently.
I love it when I can get these cooler colours into the house again - in the winter I love red, orange and pink, to keep us warm, but when light comes into our dark house and the colours outside echo the blues and greens inside, we know spring has come.
I'm making the change-over slowly. You can see the Chinese bowls I showed yesterday in the mirror here!
I don't mind if a bit of orange or red stays on a bit longer - the slow transition is quite fun!
I wish I had more news to give you about the gunman who has now been under siege in Toulouse for about 16 hours. We are so glad that they have cornered him, but it is anxious, waiting. He can't get to us, now, but we have friends from church all around the area where he is holed-up, and of course we fear for the police too. Your prayers are still very much appreciated, for the bereaved (the funerals have taken place today, as I expect you saw) and for a peaceful transition from siege into custody now.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Chinese influence...

... maybe because we watched Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon with the boys on Saturday night!In fact, my mother collected Chinese embroidery, and I hardly display it at the moment, so this is a good opportunity to bring some out.I think my grandpa brought the soup bowls, plates and spoons back from his naval escapades in the Far East - they've been languishing in a box for far too long, and I really like having their spring-like colours on display.
They go well with the usual European vintage and hand made selection too!
Thank you so much for your comments and prayers about the killings and ongoing threat in Toulouse. Security around the schools has been really stepped-up and everyone is talking about it, but in fact when I had to drive to two different businesses in Toulouse for work today I wasn't affected by road blocks or anything, which I'd feared. We're being warned that the killer is likely to strike again, and I guess we can only pray that he is thwarted and caught before he can do any more harm. We aren't terribly scared - perhaps we should be, but life has to go on and we can't be crippled by terror, just cautious and prayerful.

Monday, March 19, 2012

A Pause in Lent - please pray for Toulouse

I'm back from my blogging break and had some ideas about the Cardinal Virtues but I feel that today the only thing I should blog about is the tragic shootings in Toulouse.
We live in a market town outside the city but we go to a metropolitan church right in the city centre, not far from where the first shooting (of an off-duty soldier) occured two Sundays ago. Last week three uniformed soldiers were shot and this morning a teacher and three children have been killed outside a Jewish school.We don't really fear for ourselves but the tragedy in our own home area is hard to accept. I've already forwarded one kind, prayerful email (sent by a blogging friend in the USA) to our pastor, as he and his wife will definitely be more affected by all this than we are. Schools and religious buildings are being urged to increase security. The soldiers who died were all of North African or Caribbean ancestry and the latest victims, Jewish. It's impossible to tell if there is a racist, 'religious' or other type of motive, or even if the latest killings are connected to the earlier ones. But shootings like this are not really known in France and we are sad, confused, alarmed and disturbed.

Monday, March 12, 2012

A Brief Break

Hello friends, I'm taking one of my little blogging holidays! I'll be back on Sunday (or possibly Monday) for a Pause in Lent, but between now and then I won't be visiting your blog or mine. Feel free to email me if you'd like to get hold of me, though, and do have a browse through my posts (recent or otherwise) for a taste of what life here in the South of France holds for a British family...